creating in the midst

2010

Happy New Year!

Here is my Full Blue Moon collage for the New Year.

I like to think of it as my intention collage.

My word for 2010 ~ Intend.

My other words are Deliberately Create and Celebrate.

2010  ~ my year to Intend, Deliberately Create, and Celebrate.

Later this week I intend to write a mondo beyondo list, but first I will fill you in on what I have been up to.

I started working. I applied to a ton of companies right before school started in the fall. I wasn't exactly sure what I was looking for. The month of October I worked at Green Briar Nature Center as a Naturalist teaching elementary school children about the pond and forest. Even though the job didn't pay well, I loved it!  I hope I get asked to do it again when the Center has more funding and hours available. While working at the Nature Center I also began working for the Gap as a supervisor, but the schedule didn't work out.

For the past 8 weeks I have been working as a teller at a Bank. I was very excited when I was offered this job. I thought the hours that I had said I could work (from 9-3 while the kids are at school) would really be ideal. But I kept being scheduled after 3. It was extremely frustrating to constantly have to explain I can't work past 3. I had to continuously scamper to find someone to watch Ethan and Maggie when I was scheduled outside my availability, or if the children had a day off from school, or if one of them were sick. It caused me endless stress! I decided to quit because of the schedule and the high pressure sales. I was told during my interview I would have sales goals, but I was not prepared how pressured I would feel to open checking accounts. It just isn't something that feels good to me.

Taking care of the house, my family, and myself is a full time job! I don't have to get another part time job, but I want to. Even the little bit I am earning (in comparison to what I earned when I worked full time before I became a stay at home mom) was able to help me shift my feelings of abundance. I no longer stress out every time some unexpected expense comes up. Now I am trying to find a job where I can work at night when the children are in bed. I applied to a bunch of places with evening shifts like CVS, KMart, Stop & Shop, and some inventory service companies. I want to find a flexible, pleasant, interesting work environment. I would love any suggestions for jobs I could do from home or in the evening!

Working and Holidays have kept my life full. I am grateful that I have been able to enjoy lots of wonderful family time, but I have spent very little time creating by myself. I have been creating ALOT with Ethan and Maggie. We even started a blog together; Twishes in Trees. We made the banner together.  I intend to post our creative adventures and gratitude lists there. I have continued my practice of meditating and listening to Abraham-Hicks. I intend to re-start my Be Alive Believe Be You blog and post about deliberate creating and my virtual reality there. Deliberate Creating is a huge part of my life and I want to interact with others who are enjoying learning from Abraham-Hicks.

That is what has been happening in my world. I will be back soon!

I would love to hear what you have been up to!~

nothing and everything

I usually go to bed super early. It is what enables me to get up while the house is still quiet. But tonight I am staying up past my bed time because blogging has been good to me. I want to stay connected and I really enjoy being part of The Next Chapter.

The Joy Diet is the first book I own by Martha Beck, and although I do read O magazine, I usually skip her column. I was quiet surprised at how much I Loved the first chapter and how much it resonated with me. Nothing is something I have been practicing for months now and it really has shifted my life. What I have manifested in my life recently is truly amazing and I owe it (mostly) to the Joy of meditation~ (my "doing nothing" every morning).

I have always longed to meet up with other Creative Bloggers in a group setting. Last Saturday was a wish fulfilled as I spent the afternoon at Creative Play and then took a fun road trip with Leah, Jenn, and Mindy to the Squam Art Fair where we hugged many like spirited souls. As much as I have wanted to go on a creative retreat, I haven't felt ready to leave my children over night. My day trip (that lasted until past 1 AM) was perfect for me!

This Saturday I am having another wish fulfilled as my art will be part of a group exhibit in Hyannis, details at www.melbamcmullin.com  (I will be blogging here at creating in the midst and then at melbamcmullin.com I am sharing my art happenings, works for sale, and teaching****more about this soon! another wish fulfilled!! :))

I LOVE that Jamie in her welcome to the journey post suggested we create a Joy collage card.

Really, Joy is the key to nothing and everything.

 

My pics at Squam didn't come out so clear, but I still wanted to share the smiling faces!

 

me, Leah, Jenn, Mindy

 

Leah, Jenn, Christine

Me and Georgia

Jenn and Susannah

 Thea

  Jenn, Leah, Darlene, Me

Found

Yesterday I was missing Ethan and Maggie.

I gave sooo much of myself to them this summer. and it was a beautiful summer. The love. The laughter. The light. The growing connections for me ~ the ones with my children and also the deeper one forged with my husband recently and us as a family, coupled with my meditation, are expanding me to a place I have always longed for. Always wished for.

Today after dropping Ethan and Maggie off at school (where they RUN into the building themselves) I planned to clean and organize the house some more. The first thing I came upon were 3 boards I purchased last month to take part in this art exhibit. Emersed in my roles as wife, mother, and self explorer, I temporarily forgot about my role as passionate artist.  After some searching I found the flyer that had accompanied the boards and saw that I had until Sunday to hand in my contribution. So I dusted off my Mod Podge and pulled out my colored tissue paper. How long had it been since my hands were in glue?

While the first layer dries I have been listening to this old playlist and singing out loud!

and smiling and dreaming and wishing and planning how I can manifest and merge and balance ALL I desire.

The other day as part of my house re-organizing I was moving my old journals to a different spot. It was slow going as I kept stopping to read a page from each one. Just now two lines from a poem I read in one of the journals kept repeating in my head;

My soul that I had forgotten. No longer am I alseep.

I stopped now to look for the poem amongst my 40 plus journals and found it in under a minute. I guess it was meant for me to share...

October 26, 1998

Dreamy

Been away from blogging for a bit. There is this HUGE transition that is taking place in my life. It seems like yesterday I became a stay at home mom, but it was over six years ago...and now in just a few days both my children will be in school full time.  Although I knew this day was coming and I tried to prepare for it, I am still asking myself the question; What do I really, really want to do now?

I have meditated every morning for the past 40 days. A shift has occurred inside of me that I know will eventually spill over to all areas of my life. It is during those mornings after meditation that I created my Dream Board for the Full Corn Moon. I had so much I wanted to share that it is spread over four pages in my journal.

 

I am still in the process of getting my daycare license. Some home improvements must happen before I can be approved. I am happy to say those improvements are on the way as our house is being repaired and painted while I type this. I am purging and organizing and deep cleaning our home...it needs it and I have the added motivation of the daycare potential. Sometimes the idea of daycare seems perfect and other times...well, I am not sure. Either way our house will look good when it is done. In the meantime, I have applied to several places around town with hopes of getting a part time job while the children are in school. No responses yet, But I am positive the best, most happiest path for me will unfold naturally. 

In other news we got our first pet. I have never had a pet before. My Mom bought the kids two hermit crabs. They are a little bit more work then I thought. I don't want them to die in a week so I am trying to follow the advice of other hermit crab owners I have researched on line. They are super cute and Maggie was so EXCITED when Ethan's crab changed shells a few nights ago. They are fun to watch!

I am hoping to go to Leah and Jennifer's Creative Play workshop in a few weeks. Still working out the details. Maybe I will see you there!

 

Here we are at the Eric Carle Museum earlier in August. It was beautiful! I just LOVE Eric Carle. He even has a blog!

Wishing you ALL Much Happiness!

Reminder

Cleaning house on this HOT, HOT summer day.

Taking a tiny break.

Collage reminds me that the most important thing is for me to feel good.

 

I am

Jamie asked the question

What door do you wish to open?

I wish to Open the door to me ~ to my most authentic {source energy} self.

 

Full Sturgeon Moon

Inspired by Jamie,

I created my dreamboard for the Full Sturgeon Moon on the inside of the first few pages of my journal that I started recently

this way I can look at it every time I write in my journal.

Me and The Moon last night at Aselton Park

 

Maggie still loves to wear her pink boots practically Everyday!

 

Ethan has had fun all summer at the lake.

 

Today I plan to find (and hopefully implement) creative ways to hang and display Ethan and Maggie's artwork. Any ideas?

Dreamboards

I was up early today meditating (yes!) and then adding some pieces to my Full Sturgeon Moon Dreamboard. Hope to finish tomorrow morning and then post it later on in the day.

Here are a few of my past Dreamboards

 

 

 

 

 

Practice

 

 

August 1st.

There are several practices I want to make into habits this month~

Like meditating in the morning (I have for the last 7 days yeah!)

and counting my blessings every night before bed.

I am off to a good start.

Surprise!

 

I decided to obtain my child care license. I explained it all in a long journal entry and planned to post it tonight at an eager soul's journal.  I wanted to use melbamcmullin.com as the blog URL for my new business and when I made that my default weblog all the links to my pictures and journal scans broke through out all my blogs. This was quite an unexpected turn of events, but it is all good.

I still plan to blog here occasionally, but I will probably post mostly art and pictures.

I deleted all my old blogs because of the broken links. It feels freeing!

You can still connect with me through facebook and email.

Hope you are having a great summer!

Thanks for all your support!